Breathe and be

 When life is overwhelming and life  is overloaded or empty,  I choose to be still, to focus on peace and breathing, to focus on the present moment, looking around me at all that feels safe or shutting my eyes and going deep within. 

I find the present moment to be golden with light, framed in a calm place within me. This is what I seek when my symptoms rage, my ability to tolerate the environment diminishes further, I struggle with fears, doubts, worries, anxieties that in reality I can do nothing about. I find my place of inner being and find a healing moment of love.

Peace

 

Peace is essential to my being. If I don’t have peace, I am off balance. Therefore I need to focus on peace, on calm, on stillness to centre me in a place that feels internally good and safe.

Some days I can feel the peace pouring into me, as if from somewhere else. Sometimes it just resides and glows in me like a pure golden light spreading its blessing.

Other times I lose touch with it, especially if my world is externally chaotic and stressful. At these times, I can easily get overwhelmed and lost from any sense of goodness. In myself. The burning, throbbing, negating pain I feel blocks out kindness, blocks out beauty, blocks out feeling, sensation, hope. It screeches in my body and torments he on so many subtle kevels of existence.

This is when I have to stop, be still, present within myself, focus on breathing and seek inner peace once more. This is how I survive and more than that, live, in the context of never-ending physical suffering and turmoil. Peace is everything. It enfolds, it comforts, it brings strength and clarity, it is light as air and warm as love. It is within me and around he. It is my protection and my happiness.